Just in Case

Just in case you have been wondering about my facebook post regarding my recent blind date.

My visiting teaching partner, Janice, has taken me in. She is such a sweet giving person. She like many friends is baffled that I cannot find a man. She thinks I am 'super cute, intelligent, got my sh*t together, fun, make good money'. . . the list goes on how great she thinks I am. I laugh. I honestly do not know why I cannot attract men. It is the honest truth. I think I am cute, fun, and smart.Well Janice has taken it as her mission to see me with a man.

She has known a single man in our ward. He lives with his mother due to her age and recent spouse/father death. He has a 13 year old daughter that comes to church with him every week. She pointed him out. I was jolted by his matureness. He does not have wrinkles and only a few strands of gray hair but he dressed stuffy. It hit me so hard that he is my demographic now. I am middle aged. Yikes. . . guess that means I have to date middle aged. Right then I missed Josh and his youthful ways. It hurt to admit that my dates are no longer exciting fun and young. sigh. I resisted the urge to be old so I took a pic of the back of Scott's head with my phone during sunday school--I felt younger doing something so immature.

I put Janice off for a couple months. When Josh got married I said Janice hook me up. So Tim, Janice's husband arranged the time and Janice and I made the food. We ate kabobs. Beef, chicken, shrimp, tomatoes, zucchini, mushrooms, onions, bell peppers, etc. (this is getting long). So we ate, and talked.

Scott came in a Jeep. I was feeling better already. We sat down to dinner and had a long dinner. All four of us kept talking and talking. We left the dinner table and brought everything into the kitchen. Scott thanked us for dinner and proceeded to stand with all of us in the kitchen for an hour! We moved into the living room and chatted for another hour. The whole dinner lasted 4 hours. He finally left. He said it was nice to meet me and that he had a great time. I truly think he had a great time. We had fun. Janice was ecstatic when he left. She took me home (since I am without car).

The next day she texted asking if he had called. I laughed. I am not at all concerned that he has not called. I know he had fun. I had fun. Lets just leave it at that. But Janice wants him to call so bad. More than I do. She snooped and found out he graduated high school 12 years before me. Tuesday she texted me his phone number urging me to call. I am not. I have called many men. It is time for men to be men and man up and call me. lol. It is killing Janice and my friends from work. I am going to remember the fun time. I am not going to worry that he has not called. I am not going to even begin to think how ugly, fat, annoying, self confident, and more negative things I am and that is why he did not call. I am still great and I had fun!