Thoughts and feelings with a side of murmurings with gratitude for dessert

It has almost been a year since my last post. I have missed it. I have often written posts in my head and written them down in my journal. I have realized I am too lazy and busy and selfish with my time to go to the library and write. Even today--I am meeting Korbin (friend from WSU dental hygiene school) for her bday lunch in 30 min. Then I want to get a session done at the temple and then I really need to finish preparing and finalizing my lesson for Gospel Doctrine tomorrow. Plus clean the stove and do all the other standard house chores. Right now Scott is sleeping, so I took this time to head to the library for a major internet fest. Scott is working graves this week for an undetermined amount of time. I did wake at 6:30 am and clean the bathroom, did a load of laundry and cooked big breakfast for Scott when he came home. Sat with him and visited and rubbed his feet before he started to fall asleep and I dragged him to bed and left. Poor guy. He is working at Rhett's trucking hauling water, KCl and other products for the oil field. He really likes it. He was out of work for 15 months, pretty much to the day. It has been a very hard 15 months for us. I know we have been blessed and helped! Every time our savings got empty we would have an unexpected amount of cash to deposit. It truly kept us going. I am so thankful for tithing and fast offerings. They really do help. We incurred quite a bit of debt with the start of SAMAS trucking. And then the semi truck died--dead died. It was and still is heart breaking. But now that Scott has been working for a month we are able to start chipping away at that debt instead of just paying minimum payments. I have hope that we will be alright. I just pray that Rhetts trucking will stay busy. Right now they are very busy. Busier that they can handle. I am afraid that some jobs wont get done on time and then the customers will seek other companies to do the work. Luckily Scott has proven himself to be a reliable and dependable and efficient worker. 

I am working 3 days a week for Dr Monfredi in Vernal. I am so thankful for him and the work I have there. Many hygienists are out of work and want more hours and I have all I want. I was working 4 days but Heidi (another WSU friend) just came back the first of October after a maternity leave.  Sr Monfredi was sad to have me gone. I think I could work 4 days a week with Debbie and Heidi if we had a larger office. But that is alright. I get tired after 3 days of picking teeth. It is nice to have a short week there. 

I work 1-2 days a week for Smith's pharmacy. I have been there a year. It has been nice. I still find it hard to stand for 10 hours but I try to break it up by taking laps around the store and moving as much as possible in such a tiny pharmacy with lots of people. Pharmacy work is always drama. Sheesh. Currently we are dealing with the fact that Jason Lewis the pharmacy manager was arrested 2 weeks ago. He came home and told his wife that he was leaving her for a girlfriend he had been seeing for a couple of months. A fight ensued. A big fight. A bad fight. Guns involved. Police involved. Threats involved. Jason is a very big body builder. He has regular testosterone injections. He may or may not be abusing steroids and went off in a 'roid rage and beat his wife. Then took the gun and fired it inside the house and then threatened to kill himself and any cops that came to stop him. So he was charged this week with 2 felony counts of aggrevated assault, 2 misdemeaners of violence in the presense of minors and 1 felony count of discharge of a firearm. We think he was fired from Smiths because his wife came in yesterday telling us her insurance was ending soon. We are not really sure of the details other than we are down a pharmacist. We had one pharmacist offer to help fill shifts. The whole basin knows what has happened. Sad. 

Last night we had a call from a Dr office in Roosevelt. They told us a man from New York was going around getting prescriptions for Promethazine with Codeine cough syrup. He gets 1350 mls. Which is A LOT. Well he came in the night before. And then he came in last night. So we called the cops. Later that night someone else came to pick up the prescription and we called the cops. I was helping him and stalling. I was pretty awesome if I say so. The cops came and took him away. That is all I know about the subject--other than we had filled for him earlier in the week under another name. Silly drug users. 

I had a great girls day out last week. I went to Witchfest with Ash and Eden from Dr Turnbow's office in Duchesne. I quit there in May. I miss the girls very much. We had THE BEST day! Lunch was amazing. The dirty cokes were  perfect. The weather was wonderful and the shopping was plentiful. I had a really good time. Well my 30 minutes is almost up. I need to get some books before I leave. I wish I could have this blog more often. There are some things I want to write about and this is the perfect place

For instance Dan got married in June. He emailed me in Jan telling me he was going to go back to the temple and that he was sorry he was a bad husband etc and asked me to forgive him. I find the whole thing difficult. I want to forgive him because I dont want him to have power over me anymore plus we are commanded to forgive. It is hard. I still am working on it. I dont trust his sincerity regarding changing. That is not my call to make so I will work on forgiving him and not having anything to do with him. I hate that I am failing in this area of my life. 

I am so thankful for my blessings! For being humanitarian person in my ward, for teaching Sunday School and for Scott working. Life is looking pretty good on this beautiful fall day!