ISO dumping ground

I have been thinking about going to a therapist, a counselor, a paid friend, a shrink, whatever you want to call them. I need one. I cannot let myself trust anyone with my deep secrets and concerns. I dont want this therapist to tell me what to do. I just need to let some stuff out and know for sure that no one will know and that I wont be judged and condemned for my thoughts and feelings. I mean they are just thoughts and feelings not actions. I do not even feel comfortable writing on this blog, even though I only give access to people I trust.  Anyway, this has been a 4 year desire of mine and I keep finding excuses not to have this expense. The end.