Yesterday I met a man for lunch. I got this lovely rose. I suspect it was purchased at a real florist (not the grocery store-like Dan did). It was wrapped in lovely green paper and tied with string. It was completely Portland and recyclable. I kind of chuckled. But the point I am making is that this man made extra effort to give me something special and he obviously put effort into it. 
He had me meet him at a cafe I had not been to in downtown Portland. It was a pretty nice place. I was so nervous I could not enjoy the delish food. I settled for soup-which was goodl. While the date was perfect the man was not. I have not had a man make such effort to impress me. From a nice comfortable cafe to the detail in his appearance to acceptance of my moral values. Most men today do not abstain from sex in anyway. They find women to give them what they want or they watch porn. Needless to say online dating or bar dating (what I have been doing lately) results in men who are looking for hook ups. I don't drink so I am the sober one of my friends and can see these men for the dorks they are. Online I get emails and IM daily from men who want my number to sext to me. They pressure me into coming over to their houses to just snuggle since I explain I don't have sex. They are persistent and plentiful. I just 'click out' of the conversation and move on. So when I found a man who respected my values and beliefs I had to give him a chance.
He is so nice. So caring, sensitive, intuitive, thoughtful. He tries so hard to make me happy. It is all about me. How stinking nice! How wonderful! How is this man not the best thing ever. How come I cannot take advantage of him and keep seeing him rebuilding my self esteem and being emotionally fulfilled. I mean he remembers the names of my friends (you guys) who he has not met. It is like he takes notes at every conversation. It is plain impressive. I am not accustomed to being treated like I matter this much. He actually listens to me.
I am repaying his kindness and extreme efforts by crushing his dreams and hopes. I am an ass.
6 comments:
How are you crushing his dreams? I read the whole post. Am I missing something? Lack sleep will do that, but I slept well last night. I do admit to being all over the map today. No idea why. I think of you ALL the time...wish I could be of more support.
Yes, did you break up with him? I am really hesitant about the whole online dating thing. Too many weirdos out there, along with the weirdos you meet in person, lol. Glad you got a nice rose and had a nice date. What was wrong with him?
first of all, props to you for being strong about your standards. i'm sure there's lots of creepers out theree. second, your date sounds so thoughtful.....i want to know the same thing maria does :)
I am glad you had fun and that you got a REAL flower!! love ya bunches!! guess what my word verification is??? popensin.. like pope n' sin..so fun!!
yeah, what was wrong with him!? I'm with everyone else... he sounds awesome. Is that the problem... is he too great?
Mair... confused. Wanting to know what the others do... whats wrong with him?
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